Life, in general

jan 7 the fear within me is something i cannot pinpoint oct 30 sometimes I think about the descent from probable potential the expectations you probably receive when you hold your baby in your arms for the first time it's too much; too much that is put on you when you first come from the womb that my child will be successful, intelligent, and have a good heart they will take care of me when they are older and will start a family of their own, too never the expectation that they could take the wrong path, like develop a debilitating mental illness abuse substances and never reach their fullest potential that my child will grow up to be a jaded failure. you think you did everything right you moved to a better country with less corruption, less crime nicer houses, cars, better jobs, and better education you did everything you could to make sure your child would have a better outcome at life than if they had grown up in a poorer country yet somewhere, somehow something still went wrong...

Amanda Sweetheart  from chicago likes roblox gets too bored easily impatient with trying to get stickers met at library 2017 met saki through her black told me and saki her real age in wine cellar were freaking out in my original friend group with Brent, Hailey's, misaki, haydon, æs, drea, meag, trey, melody, bqby (can't remember her name), Tess, and kaiser had a chaotic wedding with haydon which I have video of haydon was at a movie theater irl the whole time only the adults took the whole thing seriously :,) unfriended bc she never played alts Gabbie Love, Alex Undermen knows Hannah Montana's secret Tess Tickles alt Mike Literus met at kitchen '17/18 she tried to troll me by being rude and then I criticized her poor spelling of Tourette's and we became friends from texas name is La(something) Lashawnda? Latasha ? caucasian has 2 kids, older boy and babygirl was in her late 20s has husband smokes weed a lot talks about her kids a lot can actually talk a lot unfrien...

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 hiding  I think I've been hiding behind my accomplishments or whatever gives me pride in some sort of way and using that as a shield to protect myself from being hurt, and ultimately refusing to learn and grow 

  I am sick. I’m sick. I’m weak. I can’t take this shit anymore. When will they wake up. When will I have the courage to walk out. I’ve been cordial, I’ve been respectful of their beliefs.  I’ve been respectful of my whole country’s belief. But the truth is I’m not OK with it. This belief has enslaved more than it's liberated.  I’m tired of people believing in this conditional entity they believe will grant their wishes. Like he’s some kind of fairy wizard. Because then they go around life thinking they can treat people the same way. That life will grant you whatever you want depending on how hard you beg for it. It is a cult designed as a religion. All people who trick themselves into joining a cult deserve it. I wish Filipinos as a whole would wake up. There are already so many who are, but their numbers pale in comparison. They have been conquered and colonized by so many outside groups. I think it’s time they take back their own identity and not the one romanticized o...

What I learned from my trip going to Tennessee to see my cousins: How to fly by myself Going through security What to bring  Where to go when there How to say yes to new experiences, like trying new foods How to understand family boundaries and that they are not intentionally trying to exclude me How not to be picky and be grateful for whatever is provided How to accommodate the whole group/family's wants That sometimes people need their alone time That family is always there for each other and is the most important